this is hell!

cha cha cha changes

2010-06-03T07:43:00.000-07:00

umzug zu tumblr: this is hell!

ferien

2010-03-02T03:09:00.000-08:00

tipp für berlin-freunde: freundevonfreunden (de selby-projekt in börlin)

confusion

2010-02-18T04:54:00.000-08:00

Ficktion

2010-02-13T06:08:00.000-08:00

pretty much how i feel about this "wanting-to-writing-a-novel-shit" right now...what was i thinking...

there is thunder in our hearts

2010-02-09T04:29:00.001-08:00

kate bush as child (photos from clair voyant)

she reminds me of alice lidell

Heimito

2010-02-03T06:35:00.000-08:00

"Man hört ein Scharren im Wald, der sonst lautlos in seinem eigenen Gesumm ruht. Man hört jeden Ton weit, jedes Geräusch, den anschlagenden Specht, zwei raufende Eichkater im Geäste. Das Himmelslicht sickert oben bei den Wipfelspitzen ein, das Schweigen fällt in erdrückenden Massen, der Wald schweigt gegen den Boden zu..., die Äste der dicken Fichten sind gesenkt und durchgeschwungen." (DS, S.204)

let's rock

2010-01-07T11:58:00.001-08:00

all from here

je reste avec vous

2010-01-03T08:38:00.000-08:00

polarlichter

2009-12-30T01:35:00.000-08:00

we are having a blue moon eclipse tomorrow

mugshot

2009-12-29T00:29:00.000-08:00

sexy people

2009-12-27T23:38:00.001-08:00

watched a very moving TATORT yesterday and had to even it out with this: sexy people

paz de la huerta

2009-12-27T08:35:00.000-08:00

can somebody please tell me where i get glasses like that!

btw

2009-12-26T11:58:00.001-08:00

btw: merry christmas!

perverted by language

2009-12-26T01:01:00.000-08:00

Interview with Blaise Cendrars in 1966 Paris Review:

Interviewer: You need the customs tariffs in order to write that book?

Cendrars: My dear sir, it's a matter of language. For several years, each time that I prepare to write a book, I first arrange the vocabulary I am going to employ. Thus, forL'Homme Foudroyé[The Astonished Man, available again from Peter Owen], I had a list of three thousand words arranged in advance, and I used all of them. That saved me a lot of time and gave a certain lightness to my work. It was the first time I used that system. I don't know how I happened onto it.... It's a question of language. Language is a thing that seduced me. Language is a thing that perverted me.Language is a thing that formed me. Language is a thing that deformed me. That's why I am a poet, probably because I am very sensitive to language -- correct or incorrect, I wink at that. I ignore and despise grammar which is at the point of death, but I am a great reader of dictionaries and if my spelling is none too sure it's because I am too attentive to the pronunciation, this idiosyncrasy of the living language. In the beginning was not the word, but the phrase, a modulation. Listen to the songs of birds!

full interview here

Adolf Hoffmeister, 1959 illustrations forAround the World in Eighty Days by Jules Verne

join me

2009-09-03T02:56:00.001-07:00

ice bear

clay bunnies, saw inland empire again yesterday and liked most of it, this made me think of the great bunny scenes in the movie.

right....

bear

2009-09-01T02:50:00.000-07:00

A bear in a dream is a very rich and complicated dream symbol. In order to understand it, objective association need to be made. Bears are solitary animals and the females are solitary mothers. They hibernate in a cave and they are generally not predatory animals. A bear is only aggressive when provoked, and as such times he is dangerous and deadly. Bears in dreams may represent a period of introspection and depression. However, this may be a part of a healing cycle, where the dreamer has retreated into himself in order to regenerate and in order to create something new and valuable in his life.

no punishments

2009-07-27T12:56:00.001-07:00

the wizard of oz is everywhere. here: jim white exibhit in the douglas hyde gallery, dublin. thnks for the pic, marc! need to use it for one of my new stories called "painting in intimacy" set in.....tada: tenerife! what a surprise.

and another one of those shots that make me wanna move to california, sigh....

tenerife

2009-07-26T18:08:00.001-07:00

what shall i say? pina coladas, lots of fried food, going on all the rides at the funfare....it was total bliss.

questions

2009-06-25T06:27:00.000-07:00

am i leaving?
will the waitress come?
do i have to pay?
did i figured it out?
am i beaming?
am i loosing my head?
is everything ruined?
what to order?
am i ready?
is this a dream?
do i need more details?
is dairy really bad for me?
should i tell everyone?
do i ignore things?
is your smile making me nervous?
could things be better?
who's everybody?
is everything fine?
do i ruin everything?
where is everybody?

of course I'm crazy, but that doesn't mean I'm wrong

2009-06-05T05:54:00.000-07:00

butdoesitfloat

stuck

2009-06-04T03:10:00.001-07:00

i want this to be me.

stop whining, you had too much anyway

2009-06-02T01:54:00.001-07:00

i spend my days

with mister cave

and mister capote.

killiney beach, just a 20 minutes Dart-train ride away, sometimes i forget that dublin is by the sea.

post scriptum

2009-06-01T01:37:00.000-07:00

a little late, but: thanx again, mom!!!

ballsbridge

summer crossings

2009-06-01T01:24:00.001-07:00

a lovely weekend at inakis and amandas place in inchicore. we ate ravioli, drank a lot of white wine and fell asleep on the sofa at night. i love inchicore. you go outside and have a story everywhere: greesy chinese takeouts, chippers, ghettolike buildings, delirious people...i loved it!

amanda in all her glory :)

summer is finally crossing....i´m reading two biographies at the same time: truman capote and nick cave (which brings me back to my beloved melbourne...), and i´m addicted to magnum mint icecream, it sounds strange, but its a total happymaker!

blast from the past

2009-05-16T07:20:00.000-07:00

i just discovered a shop in dublin that sells frankie, my favorite magazine in australia and overall one of the best mags in generale!

marion, i'm not jealous anymore that you go back to oz in september (ok, that's a lie...)

2009-05-16T07:08:00.000-07:00

can't wait to get to teneriffe.

i think i have a crush on ...

2009-05-07T06:08:00.001-07:00

all from here

ready to....

2009-05-03T02:40:00.000-07:00

leave town again.

april

2009-05-01T02:09:00.000-07:00

summer thoughts

2009-04-30T07:16:00.000-07:00

there is just something about......

summer girls.....

summer rainbows....

summer reads...

the cool boys of summer...

summer movies...

summer houses.....

rainbows....(again)

summer icons.

OMG: cute!

2009-04-25T08:56:00.000-07:00

i found this japanese blog about a cat. its so cute and funny! its name is maru-chan.

beautiful house in los angeles built around a sycamore tree!

strange

2009-04-24T06:49:00.000-07:00

something really strange happened when i came home last night.

it was midnight, i could hear the church bells from elgin road. a man was standing in front of the cherry-trees in lexington avenue with a long fishing pole in his hands, he was swinging it through the air and it made those typical hissing sounds, he was swinging it over the cherry-trees again and again...i wonder what he wanted to catch?

it was the strangest thing.

Happy Birthday, Anne!

2009-04-23T08:21:00.000-07:00

it's my birthday.

obviously I'm a bit older than that.....i just really like this cake.

on days like these it can be hard to be away from home...so thanks to everybody who wrote or called today! my students were really sweet: two of the girls made some sort of chocolate-rocky-road-style-cake and the whole class got me a vegetarian cookbook and more chocolate from butlers. they also said that i still look young especially when i wear my hair down which i should do more often according to them....sweethearts!

pretty things

2009-04-21T03:02:00.001-07:00

cherry blossom in japan

breakfast in paris

this was one of my favorite movies when i was 13, so mysterious....i visited hanging rock while in australia and unlike the girls, i came back....

and not so pretty things......

i used to love the book, but the queen of hearts in alice in wonderland scared the sh... out of me.

weekend pleasures

2009-04-19T03:38:00.000-07:00

friday amanda had her tattoo made, so after we celebrated...

with prosecco and fish stew...

at fallon & byrnes wine bar.

saturday we headed down to whelans for david kitts new album "the nightsaver"

his music is very electronic and his songs can go on for hours, so it was more like being on a rave sometimes, awesome!!!! i think i´m in love...:)

spring break

2009-04-19T03:29:00.001-07:00

its finally getting warm on this island...flowers and trees in bloom everywhere, i´m almost starting to like it here...:) trees have leaves again and i can´t see the church-clock anymore across the street.

i´m also trying to be healthier....

breakfast: porridge with blueberries and strawberries, fresh sage tea

japanese breakfast

2009-04-17T04:35:00.001-07:00

via aixxx

david kitt

2009-04-15T02:42:00.000-07:00

SATURDAY!

common, have a popsicle!

2009-04-12T06:14:00.000-07:00

first of all: happy easter! mom, i miss you. not one little milka-bunny for me this year, i'm really sad, but then, life is also good right now. I'm on a short easter-break from college and do nothing but sitting on my windowsill in the sun, eating waffles with rhubarb-strawberry-compot and reading hard-boiled novels....Way to go, Philip Marlowe!

first i reread mildred pierce by cain and it was even better the second time. i really need to find that movie with joan crawford now.

in the spring of 1931.....

on a lawn in glendale, california....

it's a story about daughters, mothers, pride and pie...would you care for a piece of pie, mister rand? boy, would i care!

cain is a genius. just read this dialouge:

"hey, hey, you're breaking my heart." "I didn't know you had a heart." "neither did I."

haha!
so now i'm reading raymond chandler and its dreamy, its funny, it's boss!

on the right the great fat solid pacific trudging into shore like a scrub-woman going home. no moon, no fuss, hardly a sound of the surf. no smell. none of the harsh wild smell of the sea. a californian ocean.

i want to stay home and listen to old music and watch movies with women going up long curving staircases and men taking cigarettes out of expensive cases, snapping expensive lighters at each other.

the air got cooler. the highway narrowed. the cars were so few now that the headlights hurt.

doing the fischli & weiss

2009-04-08T07:28:00.001-07:00

home

2009-04-08T07:25:00.001-07:00

elevator

2009-04-08T07:23:00.001-07:00

every morning, riding the elevator to the 5th floor.....

what makes you think...

2009-04-07T04:02:00.000-07:00

of childhood?

bird with a french fry

2009-04-06T08:18:00.000-07:00

i just think that's really cute....

we are all one people

2009-04-01T09:57:00.000-07:00

indians
aliens

owls

martin parr.com

imagine beauty

2009-04-01T08:03:00.001-07:00

the imagine-peace-tower by yoko ono in iceland.

imaginepeace.com

tunafish sandwich

2009-03-31T09:53:00.001-07:00

Imagine one thousand suns in the
sky at the same time.
let them shine for one hour.
then, let them gradually melt
into the sky.
make one tunafish sandwich and eat.

yoko ono, from "Grapefruit"

one more day

2009-03-04T11:37:00.000-08:00

d-e-s-a-s-t-e-r
and its end of term!

what's on TV?

2009-02-25T04:48:00.000-08:00

police academy I

damn good TV.

yesterday was dramatic, today is okay

2009-02-20T06:25:00.001-08:00

garfieldminusgarfield

transformations

2009-02-16T07:38:00.000-08:00

david lynch moment

nerdy moment

hibernate

2009-02-16T06:32:00.000-08:00

give me pie. rhubarb pie. show me a sleeping grizzly.

Die schwarzen Vögel auf dem Wasser, 2008 Foto: Anne Schwalbe

umeshu roku de kudasai

2009-02-16T04:16:00.000-08:00

amanda looking totemo kawai at yamamori last saturday.

they have the best pumpkin croquettes

Sugoi!

so long, winter

2009-02-16T04:11:00.001-08:00

hello spring!

everything sucks

2009-02-13T06:51:00.000-08:00

i wanna have a view like that.
i wanna have a car like that.

i wanna move to L.A.

theselby

new nature writing

2009-02-05T02:06:00.000-08:00

new connection please...

anthony doerrs "butterflies on a wheel" at granta-magazin:

highlight of my week

if you're so smart, why ain't you rich?

2009-01-30T05:31:00.000-08:00

I discovered the Paris Review Interviews.

interviews with writers that provide a look into their minds and their creative work, it's incredible. margaret atwood wrote the introduction to vol.3 that i'm reading at the moment:

"Why am I doing such an ecentric thing as writing? is it just undigested neurosis? why spend all day in a room, in the company of a bunch of people who don't really exist? what good does it do the world? isn't it unhealthy? why waste the paper?"

oh margaret

flowers

2009-01-27T07:42:00.001-08:00

heide sent me virtual flowers :)

apparently that's what you do in art school.

with heide in brixton

...

2009-01-25T05:58:00.000-08:00

another dinner with amanda

lebanese

and later, somewhat disoriented in the washroom.

i'm a fucking artist

2009-01-23T08:15:00.001-08:00

music for torching

2009-01-22T02:52:00.001-08:00

"She imagines running away; where would she go? Into the woods to live like a wildwoman on berries and nuts?"
A.M. Homes "Music for Torching"

textur

2009-01-20T09:04:00.001-08:00

all creative processes are mysterious.

hexentanzplatz

2009-01-20T06:01:00.000-08:00

we went hiking at the harz

my nephew, the smartest 7-year old kid ever! he knew the names of all plants and animals, it was amazing!

random

2009-01-16T08:53:00.000-08:00

home.

my aunt from hannover when she was young. this photo was taken in aberdeen, she used to work in england as a nurse. she was so beautiful!

the lodge

2009-01-16T06:53:00.000-08:00

I've been to a place called cumberland lodge in december and again january this year. it was a strange mixture of british royal oddities, the shining and wuthering heights....

I didn't know what to expect: the queen, jack nicholson, heathcliff or all three of them.....

It felt a bit weird, but in a good way...started to write a new story called "the lodge". it is about an undercover-journalist who comes to the lodge to do research for an article about a group of people meeting there, the "og-people". they believe in a substance called "the og", some sort of intoxicating air.....anyways, I'm writing, but nothing is getting finished

yet.

sehnsucht

2009-01-15T10:46:00.001-08:00

christmas now and then

2009-01-15T10:35:00.001-08:00

I've been a bit homesick these days....

then....
I found this old photo from a christmas some time ago......it's at my grandmothers after the traditional singing of carols that we all have a love/hate - relationship with....that's me and my uncle, we both look so happy here, hahaha!

now...
with granny....

it was good being home.

snowmen as aliens

2008-12-01T06:20:00.000-08:00

my Dutch friend Marc got me this book as an early christmas present:

David Lynch drove around in Idaho and made photos of melting snowmen, it was part of his exhibit in Paris " The air is on fire". Thanks, Marc!

sunday morning transformation

2008-10-26T10:54:00.000-07:00

yes, the writer has been at work again. new story, haven´t finished the other one, and of course there is still the sometimes very chatty ghost of a novel roaming around. whatever, I just reread an interview with alice- the master-munro: she says that stories are like houses, sometimes you want to work in the kitchen, but sometimes you just want to sit at the fireplace (oh I wish I had a fireplace!)

......The uncanny calm of freezing, layered skies. Clouds opaque and twisted like muscles.

from "The Journal of Joyce Carol Oates"

I couldn´t say it any better.

found this, love this:
inthecountrytrio

went to the store, mom

2008-10-17T14:50:00.000-07:00

just saw "serial mom" by john waters. now i´m a fan!

He even had time to make an album with christmas songs called "A John Waters Christmas", it´s on my list. Things like that make me look forward to christmas.
This and Marzipankartoffeln.

And maybe gonzo as charles dickens and rizzo the rat as his friend in the muppets christmas story. they are so adorable!

this looks like winter already, too:

but i like it.

my computers perspective

2008-10-16T00:31:00.000-07:00

back to business

Being a Bunny

2008-10-11T12:56:00.000-07:00

I just discovered the artist Atsushi Kaga, who lives and works in Dublin. Skulls and Bunnies are having dialogues in his paintings:

"I´m feeling a bit of pressure being a bunny in front of people." Brilliant!

Apart from being dark and funny he is the coolest uncool person i have read about in a long time and him saying things like " I want to be in Waterstones café, reading books. I know it´s kinda sad, but that´s actually the place I want to be." in an interview are just incredible.

I´m not alone.

Herbststurm

2008-10-11T12:35:00.000-07:00

there was this storm last night. i was really excited.

Seven Swans

2008-10-07T14:14:00.001-07:00

this weekend

i went

to Blackrock

it was beautiful

there were swans

i used to like swans a lot

then i met Chris and Katharina at the Docklands. Chris studied Creative Writing in New York City. I´m not jealous at all.

we went on board of the Gorch Fock (luv the name, don´t you?)

Vorsicht bei Zitronengeruch!

then I walked home along the Grand Canal

oh yeah

herbert park

2008-09-28T12:48:00.000-07:00

Harvest

2008-09-24T01:40:00.000-07:00

One of the best coffee-shops in town: the Coffee-Society. Great coffee, great muffins, great Bagels. I like the one at Ranelagh Street, but they are all over the city.

BTW: I started a new story called "French Paradox", it´s about harvest, illness, time and memories, sounds sad, i know, but what can i do....It´s based on a woman i met last week, let´s call her Traudel. We ate cupcakes, drank tea and spoke about Germany. She lives in Ireland since more than 30 years and has two children.

in old neighbourhoods

2008-09-23T01:48:00.000-07:00

Tea, Maple Syrup

and Pancakes at Temple Bar

with beautiful Julia.

irish morning

2008-09-19T04:21:00.000-07:00

an irish morning in ballsbridge: smog, church bells, the irish times and a mocha latte from insomnia

yes, its fall. i even had a dream last night in which i won a prize for a short story called "French Herbst".

of course i was kind of disappointed when i woke up...

finally porridge with goji-berries again. loved them in australia, but couldnt find them back in leipzig, supposedly they count as "superfood", whatever that is...

elgin street, ballbridge, dublin 4

FIRST DAYS

2008-09-16T06:31:00.001-07:00

still getting used to it

in the morning

waking up

having tea

having lunch

at Carluccio´s

with Amanda

if this hot chockolate was a person, I would make love to it

LOVELY

2008-09-16T03:15:00.001-07:00

Spanish Girls.

They eat Cornflakes for Dinner. Their Shampoo smells like Cherry and Caramel. They wear Hello-Kitty-Pyjamas. They have great hair and skin. They are LOVELY

new beginnings

2008-09-15T13:04:00.000-07:00

the docklands. sorry, i couldn´t find another photo to start this blog. i´m still waiting for the miracle.